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Monday, June 20, 2011
I can't seem to forget what you've said. So hurtful yet...
You said I treated you somewhat like a toy. Need you then go find you, bored then go find you... What you think I am? A toy builder? And you are just one of my toys?
Don't you know how much hurt this sentence caused to me? Every time I looked at you, this popped out of my mind, causing hurt once again. I treated you like one of my precious, but somewhat you felt differently. A toy.. that's what you've claimed.
I tried to forget such hurtful sentence, but I just can't. I never expect my true love became feelings for a toy in return~ nvm(:
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Sunday, April 24, 2011
It's my fault! I'm sorry for lying~ making everything chaotic now.
I know throughout this relationship, I've been apologizing much..and it seemed useless and pointless now. No matter what I say, it's pointless already. But I just wanna apologize for one last time.
I've hurt you more than you hurting me.. and you've probably given up on me already. I remembered the first time we celebrated our 3rd months together at the Japanese village (re ben chun), the buffet(: And also, the first sunflower you gave me(: it was sweet(: I love it(: Thank you baby for giving me the love that I've never had before!
I know I've caused tremendous hurt to baby, and apologizing is what I'm strong at, always! Whenever I did something hurtful to baby, I always apologize. However, that hurt that I've made to baby will never disappear no matter what. And I finally know, a word of apology means NOTHING~ nothing at all. It's just a pure sorry coming out from my mouth, and always repeating the same things over and over again~
Baby honey, I'm not worth crying(: I'm not worth doting on(: I'm not worth your sweet concerns(: I'm not worth all that you have been doing(:
I'm just a normal girl out there..
I'll shut myself out from this world, because all I'll do is to hurt people that I loved deeply. I'd rather hurt myself than seeing people that I loved / loved me, get hurt by me(:
Honey, I think it's time you should stand further away from me, to prevent yourself from getting hurt by me. Good night my love(:
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Tuesday, September 28, 2010
I prayed that our conversation will not fade away..and also..not lessen. will it come true?
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Monday, September 27, 2010
Thank you dardar for a wonderful Sunday(:
Spent the whole entire Sunday with me! hehe...though it was a simple dating..but it was stil as sweet as ever!
However, I'm also sorry that I'd turned out to be in a "serious" condition whereby my hands and feet were cold. Stomache, but it doesn't really seemed to bee a normal one. I don't know either :(
Well, I was really happy that dardar choose time out to be with me even though he is working for almost EVERYDAY! and also, despite being tired, he still accompanied me(:
Hehe...and thank you for that lovely sunflower.. 2nd one people! hehehe
I LOVE YOU!
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Tuesday, September 21, 2010
I can feel that something isn't right with you...but I just don't know what exactly was it!! I hope you could tell me what's troubling you, but it seemed like you'd rather keep it to yourself or...tell me nothing. However, when you told me "nothing's wrong", or "I'm fine"...something just strike through my heart. Painfully! It felt as if, I no longer lives in your heart and you don't take me as your dear dear anymore. It really hurts alot, and I don't know why. When you told me you're sorry of your long-winded nagging and everything, telling me you're sorry for those ignorance, I told you "It's okay!" And seriously, I mean it!!
Sometimes, I just don't know. A little thing that you had done, will cause a great hurt to me or...a little thing that you had done, will make me feel very happy. Sometimes I cried when I thought of what you said. Sometimes, those negative things you told me, just flashed back. Tears started rolling...don't know why too :(
When I received msges containing one or 2 sentences, my heart sore! I never had this kind of feelings before~ seriously!! I'm used to your nagging...so please do not stop. NEVER do I feel that you're irritating, my boy! I just feel love~ (:
Remember once I told you, "If you're tired of me, tell me" ???
I prayed hard everyday, that I won't hear these things from you, really! Everyday when we're msging one another, I'm scared to receive msg that says "I'm tired of you already"! However, so far so good!! You said your restriction towards me (junk food and drink) was changing me...however, I do not feel that, and in fact, I'm willing to change for you!!! Please do not feel that it is ridiculous for a BF to restrict his GF...because I don't feel it this way. I know you're concern about my health, because my health isn't good. I thank you for that (:
Dardar, I hope you could remember this post. What ever I wanna tell you, it's all here(:
Thank you! and ILY!
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Baby, just promise me that you'll take my hands and love me. There's just something about y'that attracts me! And it's something VERY SPECIAL!