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Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Ida's feeling very devastated now..
Her mother has an illness called thyroids, and though it is not cancerous, her doctor advised her to undergo an operation to take the whole thing out, in order to prevent it to turn into cancerous.
And you know what? If she undergoes this operation, it will be countless already. Ida has a very selfish thought of her own! She cried, plead and questioned GOD, why must her mother suffer every time? Why does she have to undergo so many countless of operations? Why can't GOD just take her home and ease her from all sufferings? Why isn't Ida the one to carry all these sufferings?
She knows that her thoughts are selfish, but that's what she thought when she thinks about it. She hates to see her mum, crying pitifully when she knew once and once again that she has illness or something like cancers. She hates to see the sight of her mum lying unconsciously on the hospital bed. She hates to see tubes hanging around her. She hates to see nurses changing drips for her mum. She hates to see her mum suffer!!!
Though her mum told her that she has already been numbed by all these news, Ida knew that she has been crying every night. One day, Ida's mum told her that she wished to end her life during operations, she wished to disobey the doctor's instructions, wished that something might happen during operation, wished that she will contract with cancer, so it can end her life. Isn't that a selfish thought too? Ida's really feeling very moody now! She hoped and wished that someone out there would care for her, but who? Nobody..only her closed friends.
But she don't wanna trouble her friends that's why she kept everything to herself, inside her, suffocating her, strangling her, killing her!
Dear GOD, I somethimes do wish that you could just take my mum away, take her away to somewhere she doesn't have to suffer so much in her life!
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IDA'S SPEAKING NOW!!
To somebody out there...
I don't know what has gotten into you or somehow your brain cell just got spoilt by don't know what freaking reasons, please wake up alright?!
You stated down your alternatives, and that's fine with me.
When the others talked bad about you behind your back, you told them, or in fact, WARNED and DARED them to say it in front of you if they've got the guts to.
I really don't get it!!! Do you have a lost of memory of you just gotten your brain-washed by some kind of car-wash machines?
I bet so! Because you lost your memory of what you've said earlier, and now, you're one of them.
What makes you different from those people who sprout nonsenses behind people's back?!
I seriously think you should take away your stated alternatives and just be like the rest.
If you've got anything/problem with me, say it to my FACE! Don't complain to my friends or who else. SAY IT TO MY FACE! Don't worry that I can't take facts, in fact, I CAN!!! And seriously, I'm good with it! So what problems you got with me, feel free to let me know, alright?!
If you wanna try and talk behind my back, think twice, because I HATED THAT!!!
Thank You!!
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Saturday, March 28, 2009
Ida's missing the motivation camp RIGHT NOW!! She missed the fun they had, the laughter, all that. She's feeling bored at home, rotting all along.
somehow she just felt happy in school but bored at home when there's really nothing to do at all!!
She will be going to church tomorrow and bused to AMK hub aftermath to catch the movie "The unborn", and she is really praying very hard that she will NEVER scream in the theatre and NEVER pinch anyone whose sitting beside her... LoL!!!
Hope she will not be having any nightmares and scream like hell and wake her whole family up in the middle of the night...HAHA!!
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Friday, March 27, 2009
Ida's finally back!
Had the motivation camp 'I am gifted so are you' for 3 full days! From 8AM to 9PM!!
She's really really really exhausted and totally drained up! But so what?? All these will benefits her and it really helps!! So it's worthy to wake up EARLY in the morning and return home late!! Well, you must be wondering what is she doing these few days right?? Basically, she is just studying!! Learning new things that will help to improve her memory..and etc.
OK, they've got 3 trainers that were with them those past few days, and they are Gary, Freddy and Andrea. They were all such humorous trainers, and strict at times. Well, nevermind, She really do enjoy these 3 days of motivation camps. She totally enjoys the time that was spent with her friends and those trainers, the laughters and cries. During the 1st day of this motivation camp, ida thought that it'll be a BORING one! But now, time really flies, and it ended like a flash of lightening?? Like ''BOOM"!! motivation camp's over!!
But the good thing is, she can sleep all she wants!! And that is ''YEAH" for her..Cause she hasn't been sleeping well this few days, thinking of things that always popped out in her mind, things that were redundant, things that scares her out, things that she think it might happen. Now, she's free from all these "nightmares''..and her beautiful dreams were out again! "YEAH" again!! Alright, she's really tired now, and her head feels heavy. GOOD NIGHT!!
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Tuesday, March 24, 2009
OHMYMY! Ida's not feeling very good in her stomach right NOW! She is very very very tired this few days..Hope she's not going to be sick again...
Tomorrow's Wednesday, and she will be having an program which is "i am gifted so are you", for 3 continuous days! What pissed her off is the timing for the program..which is from 8am to 9pm. Can you see it?! 9PM!!! It's PM..at night! What does that mean? She will be missing her television programmes...and she have to pull herself up from bed to attend school at 630 instead 0f 930 (usual time for wed) due to the program!!!
*Irritated*
Nevermind! The program will benefit her and motivate her to study harder for her O's now!
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Sunday, March 22, 2009
Ida's been staying home this few days to update on her F&N coursework... ...
Actually, that's all a lie! I don't know for what reason, she suddenly turned into a shopaholic and went out almost everyday within this week's holiday. On monday, she went out with her parents to catch a movie ''coming soon'', on following day, she went out AGAIN to catch a movie ''race to the witch mountain with her parents. Wednesday, thursday and friday she stayed home rotting along... ...
Saturday, which is only yesterday? she went out again, ya, as usual, with her parents, to catch another movie ''hotel for dogs''. And during these days outside, she went shopping and shopping and shopping none stop till late at night. Ain't she tired? No! And she wants more... ...
Alright, enough of this! School gonna reopen for her tomorrow..and she's really freaked out...didn't know time really passes so quickly!!! Got her time table checked, bag packed, homework... ...half done? LoL!!
And she's ready for school!!!
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Wednesday, March 18, 2009
okay okay okay!
Ida's really very bored today. Lots of homework to touch on, maths online homework were really really difficult.
She still hasn't gotten over the fright she has encountered after watching the movie "coming soon", and her naughty fingers just refreshed her memories by clicking on the movie " the unborn" and a small ghost boy POP out! And she SCREAMS...like hell!!!
School's gonna reopen soon, and Ida hasn't completed her homework yet, besides, she is still lying on her back, doing nothing. O level is coming soon, and she is slacking away!
OMGOODNESS! I'm gonna tell Ida to wake up, and start studying!
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Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Okay people!
Ida had changed her blogskin because she find it really boring and sick to have that blogskin for so long.
well, this blogskin isin't any better, she knows, but hope it can last longer(:
Anyway, Ida's here trying very hard to save her blog, so please do not keep on pestering her and asking her to update her blog fully with posts of her everyday's life going on. It's very disturbing and irritating. Sorry to say that, but I must really STRESS on this word "IRRITATING". She got tons and tons of work to do everyday, and she's really very busy, so please do not keep on tagging her and say that her blog is dying or whatsoever. Thanks(:
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Baby, just promise me that you'll take my hands and love me. There's just something about y'that attracts me! And it's something VERY SPECIAL!