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Friday, July 31, 2009
ALRIGHT! LET THE TONGUE STOP WAGGING!! So who are y'to reprimand me? Unanimously, I agreed that I am straight forward to all my friends. But THIS IS MY CHARACTER, take it or leave it. Yea, y'all might be tolerating me for months or even years..I know. but have y'all ever tried to talk to me face to face about my straight forward-ness? y'all might have asked me to change for the better, but did anyone of y'ever tell me what am I supposd to change for? Yea, y'all all asked me to change change and change. But WHAT?! Changing takes time, and don't y'know it's rather hard to change a person over time? It doesn't take a week or so to do that! Understand?! I've changed..none of y'might probably realise. And don't y'think you're doing the same commentation about me now?! Bad-mouthing, betraying, backstabbing or even two-faced, please don't ever tell me NONE of y'did all the above at all! Nobody's perfect alright? Oh, so what if I've choose an individual to share about my problems with or so? If some things can be told, I will tell. So what if I always replied "nothing" when y'all asked me what's wrong? Never did y'all ever realise that I'm keeping everything to myself, reducing the affectious of my problems to ALL OF YOU!! Speaking about not admitting, I will never admit to what I didn't say or do at all! I hate people to put words into my mouth, y'are a friend if y'know this!!! Why shall I admit when I didn't say so? Please, I'm not a coward. I do things and I admit it! I don't need your reprimanding..Only GOD is allowed to reprimand people. y'might say: "I'm just trying to make y'know your mistakes, nothing else." OR "I just wanted y'to know what actually went wrong with our friendship". OH PLEASE! just stop all these will you?! There's no FOREVER friendship or FOREVER enemy in this reality world. Faced it! Friends that are by your side now, y'might think that they are the best. But, however, don't y'know some of them backstabbed or bad-mouthed things about y'to me? Y'might never realise..because y'always thinks that they are the best of friends. Please face the reality. they might be your friends now, but the next, they might be your enemy too~ Nothing is FOREVER! Hope you'll understand. Y'always says" please don't misunderstand" but don't y'realised that y're actually the one who's being misunderstood? Please don't ever THINK those friends of yours for years were angels, some might be, but I can't guarantee all. I've got plenty of secrets that y'don't know, all regarding your CLOSE FRIENDS! Care to know??! Oops SORRY! You'll know when times comes. Then, you'll realise who actually IS your friend.
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Thursday, July 30, 2009
What shall I do? Please tell me..I'm seriously LOST!
I'm really bleeding profusely inside me now! I thought I was a good friend..but however, I was WRONG!
I was there to give advice in times of need.
Showed care and concern for you.
When you needed money, I was there to lend.
When you are in needs of a pair of listening ears, I was there.
When you need a shoulder to cry on, never would I fail to be there for you.
I never mention abit at all, or blamed you when you were not there beside me when I needed help and your concern. I never!
But why? WHY NOW?! WHY ALL THESE CAME FALLEN ON ME WHEN IM IN A DILAPIDATED STATE?! WHY?!!! I tried to amend what went wrong with our friendship..but now, everything seems LOST for me. I felt a sudden pierced into my heart! A pierce that is so deep that I could die from bleeding.
I never thought of negative things when it comes talking about our friendship.
Recalling back every moments, every flashback, every hours, minutes and seconds we had in the past. All these seems to HURT now!
I apologised! But it doesn't work, does it?! There's nothing left for me to say now..My heart's dead. From this hour, this minute, this second, this year, this month and this day!! you can hide everything, all you want. It doesn't really bother me anymore. REALLY!
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLUEBERRY ICE CREAM!!!
Sometimes I'm just wondering..why all the bad things fell upon me?! My mum's sinusitis is BACK once again. I've got a bad feeling that my family's breaking up. My elder sister left the house, with everything that belongs to her! Failed to return even if it's Father's or Mother's day. Or even days that are memoriable. WHY? Now follwed by my 2nd sister. She seldome have tiffs with my mum & dad, but why now, recently, she often quarrel with them over small things or things that ain't important at all?! After working, she would often return home late. It doesn't sound like her in the past. she's starting to get sensative over the smallest thing on EARTH!
Everything changes ever since my Elder sister left! My family have had a distance with each other..conversations seems lesser each passing days. Again, why? Suddenly, I felt that this isn't the place I belong to! Where's the lively family I once had? Parents ain't quarreling that often, that's good to hear! But speaking bout' conversations, forget it! It really really hurts to see the outcome of my family now! I had been mugging so hard for my prelims as well as "O" level, but I just can't focus! I find that I've screwed up all my prelims papers. I really need help now!! It's really time for me to put in all my effort into studying and nothing else, really, nothing else! I wanted to patch things up for my family, but HOW?! I've tried in every way, but, to no avail!! I ran out of ideas~
One last thing, sincerely, I wanted to apologise to all my friends. I know I've been giving attitude to all of y'now a days. I'm SORRY SORRY and SORRY! Please also spare a thought for me..can? Given my family's status, I really hope y'all could really to give in. I've noticed the way I'm behaving recently, but, that's not the way I wanted it to be too! I'm stressed in every way. Stressed in Family and stressed in studying! My attitude might affect the outcome of our friendship, but all I hope is, IT'LL NEVER! I wanted to treasure this friendships and those things we've done in the past. I really do! I tried to put everything behind, tried to relax myself. Knock out all things that were affectious. I'VE TRIED MY VERY BEST! Yet, I failed! I'm really sorry peeps/cliques. Hope y'all could understand what I'm going through right now! SORRY!
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009
I think I just screwed up my Maths papers! Both! I did study, unfortunately, it just can't sink into my head. The papers are getting harder and harder each year. Or probably it's O level, so they set the standard higher! Paper 1 was "alright" for me, but, paper 2 was a total choas! The 1st few qns was okay, but however, moving on to the 2nd half of the paper, my mind was EMPTY. really EMPTY! I skipped a lot of qns because my stupid PIG brain just can't start it's engines! So left blanks for most of the qns! No schooling for tomorrow as well as Thursday because I don't have any papers on!!! So I should must well treasure this time to brush up all my chemistry and SS..Friday(SS and Chemistry papers)!!!!
Unanimously, I agreed with myself that I've got no basic for chemistry at all!!!! so...have to study study and study!
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Thursday, July 23, 2009
I'm starting to miss you laughters, your smiles, and your face!
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009
I might be suffering from a minor anorexia. I felt devastated and down recently, without knowing what the reasons are..You don't care, do you? Maybe I shouldn't care so much about you..making worst when y'knew but ignored! exams starts tomorrow..All im doing is to think about you. It hurts
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
AHHH! As usual, skipped lunch and dinner today..leading to gastric pain again!
Stressed! Have to finish my F&N coursework B and pass it up on Monday! IDA, YOU'VE NO TIME TO WASTE!!! And worst is, I'm now stucked in conclusion. I don't even know what to write!! Monday's the deadline..how how how?! Prelims is just round the corner, and I'm really slacking. Have to plan my schedule for studying! I tend to complete my Coursework B asap and faster move on to my revision for my prelims as well as my "O" level..I challenged myself to do the best for both prelims and "O" level. I MUST prove to everyone that looked down on me, that I can do it! Oh, "O" level's chinese listening has been scheduled on Wednesday..have to dig dig dig my ear. LOL! Wished to scored at lease B3 or A2 for Chinese! Well, missing all my friends now..hasn't been going out recently..was burried with lots and lots of work to do..
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Friday, July 17, 2009
ARGH! I'm stressed from studying! But I kept telling myself that I must have the perseverance and determination! I had to focus more on my Combined Sciences & combined humans! Had Chinese "O" level oral on the 10th July..I supposed my distinction had flown away...GONE! I think I might flunk my conversation, because I've got nothing to say. And worst of all is that I suddenly sneezed in front of the invigilators..using English to apologise! SHIT MAN! and and and, I kept repeating the same thing over and over again!! HOW?! Distinction..come back!!! Well, had maths mock exam for the past three days, and, I FAILED BOTH PAPERS! WHAT THE_!! nvm..b'cuz I never study(: Prelims is just round the corner, and I'm still slacking away, I think it's time to start revising for all subjects now! BYE~
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Thursday, July 16, 2009
Y'know what? Y'changed! I know it's good to adapt to environment changes, but y'should know, adapting to changes just like a snap of your finger is way TOO FAST! Besides this, don't y'have your own opinion in everything y'do? I've known you for about 2 and a half years..but seriously, I can't even figure out what exactly are y'thinking. Y'are secretive in whatever y'do!! I admitted that I've back-stabbed and bad-mouthed y'before..but didn't y'did that to me too?! Y'were an angel in front of me, but what were y'when you are behind me? An devil I supposed! Y'know what? I knew what y'were doing behind my back, but I chose to keep silent, hoping y'could mend your ways, but y'didnt! It disappointed me a lot. But what can I do? Nothing!! I can only sit there, let y'do it your way. Taking the olden you for comparison, y'changed 360degrees. I don't know why. And please, do things your own way, don't copy others!! Y'might know who am I referring to. so if y'do, this will be the last warning from me to you. Don't C-O-P-Y others! Do things your own way and not others! Oh yah, and, if you've got anything to say to others about me, SAY IT TO MY FACE!
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Saturday, July 11, 2009
To all my dearest friends out there, please kindly ask yourself these following questions:
- Have you ever betrayed me before?
- Have you ever talked behind my back?
- Have you ever backstabbed me?
- Are you a two-faced person?
If yes to all questions above, answer the following questions:
- Why must you do that?
- Have you ever considered me as your friend?
- Have you ever considered my feeling?
After replying to those questions within you, refresh yourself. If your answer is no to all above, please re-think. thank you!
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Thursday, July 02, 2009
It was a unlucky day for me today! Went to meet mummy to have lunch together after school..so trained to RVM to meet her. Finally, the food court had finished renovating! Looks cool now! Alright, shall start by saying why am I unlucky. When I was on my way walking to RVM, it starting raining heavily, and I was, eventually, drenched from head to toe! Reached food court and bought my lunch, after that, bought drinks. After buying drinks, a FAT FAT FAT guy just knocked into me and walked off. FUCK! and my drink was left with 3/4 full. Went back and complained to my mummy..I told her: I should have pour the drink on that guy. That'll eventually make him turn over and confront me. So if he did, I could just bumb him off by saying "WOW! you can feel don't you? Than why you knocked into me you cannot feel leh? cannot say SORRY ah?" then my mummy was laughing. After having my lunch, I wanted to head for the toilet, so I went. Thinking that it was very filthy, so I went up to the 2nd floor..WTH, cleaning in progress, come back 30mins later! I was so PISSED! so I went up to the last floor (NTUC floor). Mummy wanted to go to the toilet too, so she headed for it. Then there's a delivery of stock, so it jammed the whole path to the toilet. mummy went in because there was a small gap. After she came out, she asked me why aint I going to the toilet? I told her, my bag is too big to squeeze through! So waited and finally, they moved the stocks. I then charged for the toilet..went in, remove bag, and remove bottoms..guess what happened next? When my BUTT was sitted on the toilet bowl, suddenly, BLACK OUT!! And I swear, it was really very dark and I was the only person in the toilet. After toilet, my mummy told me she was expecting a scream from me. but I didn't(: LOL!!! So I was VERy unlucky today.
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Baby, just promise me that you'll take my hands and love me. There's just something about y'that attracts me! And it's something VERY SPECIAL!