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Friday, May 21, 2010
I just think that I trust people too much! Mum warned me about the friends that's around me and I didn't take her words seriously. However, I regretted. Mum warned me to stay away from people that's of 'horse-face'. saying that they will be the one to backstabbed me or even, betray. But I just didn't take these things into account. What now?! DAMN IT PEOPLE! It's not the first time I'm being betrayed or backstabbed by 'horse-faced' people. Why can't I just learn my lesson?!?!?!
HATE IT! GET AWAY FROM ME!!!!
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Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Seriously, I felt like I'm just a substitute to your ex.
You started talking to me in class, that's a good one.
However, you talked to me on MSN at night..asking me:" do you want to know the real reason what I don't want relationship?"
You told me that, if I want you to be happy, I shouldn't ask about this anymore..but, it's you who mentioned this topic again!!!
Alright! The main reason that you don't want a relationship is because you still missed/loved your ex alot..and on the other hand, she misses you too.
So, what for tell me things that you shouldn't, when all you've got in your mind is HER???
I felt like, I'm just a nobody in your heart. I blamed myself to be so stupid and innocent to trust whatever things you did to me, or even told me.Previously, you asked me to make a confession to you when you did yours..But now you asked me not to waste my time on you because I, deserve much better guys than you.
Sometimes, I just think that..are you really thinking about me when you're with me? Or are you thinking about your ex and I am just the substitute to her?!?!?
Please do tell me if you are just using me!!!!
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Sunday, May 09, 2010
Many things had happened. It's almost the 4Th week of getting used to my new life in RP. Things have been getting well for me. However, ever since you appeared, everything changed.
I still remembered how we used to text each other like nobodies' business for the 1st week or so..you told me you're interested in me, and noticed me ever since the 2ND day of orientation. Describing to me just like, I'm standing under a light of my own, and you just spot me amongst hundreds of people whom attended orientation.
For 1 or 2 weeks, our inbox had been filled with each other's msges..over hundreds of them. And sometimes, we just text each other till late at night, refused to sleep at times(:
You teached me the things that I'm unsure of, you teached me how to solve a problem. I still remember that day when we were in the library. Those things you said to me..ETC. I remember how close we used to be when you teached me how to do programming with BOB. I loved the way you text me every morning, asking me where am I? Do I wannna meet you and walk to school together? I loved the way you asked whether do I have my dinner yet! I loved the way we exchanged glances in class..I loved the way you did your presentation..I loved the way you called me Syg.
However, everything seemed to fade after our conversation through msging that night.
I started questioning the doubts I had with you. Wanting to know why you don't like relationship...ETC. I think you'll still remember that "ugly" conversation we had.
Things started changing..fewer and fewer msges in our inbox..fewer and fewer concern we've shared.
Things get worst after our "unhappy" conversation through MSN one night. No more msges, no more concern, no more asking whether do I have my dinner yet, no more calling of Syg, no more intimate behaviour between us, no more EVERYTHING!!
It was really saddening to hear. You told me your definition for like is just "close friends". You told me you don't want relationship. You told me things that's contradicting to what you've said before!
Suddenly, I missed those time we had. I missed msging you everyday. I missed you calling me Syg. I missed you asking me lots of question. I missed us exchanging glances at each other in class. I MISSED EVERYTHING and the time that I did/had spent with you! How I wished everything would resumed back to what it is...I hope you'll read this too!!!
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Baby, just promise me that you'll take my hands and love me. There's just something about y'that attracts me! And it's something VERY SPECIAL!