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Saturday, July 31, 2010
TAP WATER RUNNING~!!
Dardar, what you said really made me feel, somehow hurt.
After what happened today, I felt that your tone changes.
I don't know why/what made me say that, but it just does.
After the conversation with you on msn, my tap water runs again~!
I felt as if you are doubting my love for you~
Somehow, my heart had a strong punch from those words!
I'm afraid you'll leave me~
I'm afraid you'll let me go~
I'm afraid you'll start to ignore me~
I'm afraid that one day, our conversation will end~
I'm afraid that I'm no longer yours~
And I'm afraid of everything/anything that had you involved.
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Monday, July 26, 2010
cute DARDAR!!!
these are SOME of the webbie-cam pictures!!! only some~!!! will upload more tonight
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Thursday, July 22, 2010
I feel like bursting out in TEARS all of a sudden. I felt a short sharp pain in my chest whenever that question/situation struck me. Don’t ask me why, because I don’t know the answer to that too. You were disturbed by things that are happening in your family. Your grandfather has been admitted into the hospital and of course, that made you worry about him. Although doctors said he’s fine and can be discharge tomorrow, the worries that each of you supposed to have will never be forgotten.
You’re worrying about a lot of things. That explained why I wouldn’t want to tell everything that’s troubling me. I don’t want you to worry another ME! Perhaps choosing not to tell you is the best among the BEST! Adding my worries/burdens on top of yours...adding more and more to your. I’m just afraid that one day; you’ll leave me, and never return. That’s all I’m worried about. You shared what you are worrying about to me, told me that you tried to be happy today, but failed to do so. I’m worried for YOU! Same like you worry about me, right?!
Please tell/share with me things that had you troubled can? ~ I don’t want to be the last to know.
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Tuesday, July 20, 2010
HOOHOO!!! TAN DARDAR!!!! me <3 YOU!
I was down with HIGH fever yesterday..but still accompanied dardar to book chalet.. hehe(:
Thought I'll feel better, but didn't! A big thank you and A big HUG to dardar for taking so much care of me yesterday(:
Went home, and took my temeperature..38.9degrees!!!!
So in conclusion, didn't turn up for school today:( SAD SAD!!!
Was about to attend school..cuz I felt much better..BUT BUT BUT!!! mama asked me not to, and stayed home to rest.
Dardar came to my place to meet me after school. SO LOVING~ hehehe..Ate and walked around...packed fod back for my family, and dardar went home(:
Though we didn't spend a LONG time together for TODAY, I still enjoyed his company(:
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Tuesday, July 13, 2010
I DON'T FEEL THAT I'M A GOOD GIRLFRIEND TO YOU!!! :(
Making you worried EVERYDAY!!!
Felt as if your mind was NEVER at EASE whenever I'm around!!!
Felt bad when I'm "spending" your money!!!
Felt the worst when I'm the main cause of your problem!!!
I don't wanna cry in front of you because I don't want you to worry about me!
Not telling you what exactly happened because I don't wanna add more troubles to yours!!!
Sometimes I kept mum because I don't want you to know what I'm feeling! I wanna you to see the happy side of me! :(
Dardar, sorry if I made you worry~
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Sunday, July 11, 2010
Today was AWESOME!!
went for church in the morning, then meet dardar at AMK hub to watch Eclipse aftermath(:
mama and papa went AMK hub with me..then meet dardar too(: The scenario was hilarious just now.."nice to meet you..nice to meet you too!"
"Why your hands so cold? nervous huh?" then dardar was like..."YAH!"
Watched eclipse with dardar..movie rating 3/5..not very good!! Only the action part interests me!
spend my lovely time with dardar today..LOVE IT!!! Hope it'll be like this everyday(:
be it after changing class or etc..
Tmr's monday! It's gonna be a new beginning(:
I, Tan Ghan Shiang, promise Chew Ida that I will love you forever
hold your hand
hug you tight
and will never let you go
the time when this promise is broke..
is the time i pass away
love you even i still have my last breathe
How lovely is this??!?! omg!! ME LOVE LOVE OVE TAN GHAN SHIANG~!!!!
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Saturday, July 10, 2010
HELLO PEOPLE! was rather busy with UT2 recently...
was UPSET by yesterday's science UT2. Don't know how to do AT ALL! Damn it!!
Nvm..gonna start stressing myself up!
well, spend mmy lovely time with dardar yesterday. After school...spend our lovely time in the park(: hehe..AND DARDAR BITE ME!!! ALOT OF TIMES~!!!
pain pain~~~ nvm! I still love my dardar much much(:
Hmm, I'm gonna start revising on my math as well as my programming already. Last 2 UT before relaxing!!
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Monday, July 05, 2010
UT2 for Cognitive was FINALLY OVER~! Damn it! it was rather easy la..but tricky at times(:
Hmm..stayed back and accompanied dardar to play CS with some other classmates for dunno how many MINUTE!!! Then dardar accompanied me to CWP to get my HP repaired!! SWEET~!
hehe...walked around and then he stayed with me to wait for my bus(:
SO SWEET~
Gonna study soon on enterprise as well as revision on science le(: Feel so dumb all of a sudden!
I LOVE TAN DARDAR(: (don't let me buy alot of chocolates!!!)
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Sunday, July 04, 2010
NO APPETITE TO EAT! skipped breakfast and lunch already! COOL?!
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Saturday, July 03, 2010
Please tell me what to do once again!
Something's wrong with mama's mind...AGAIN~!
I'm stucked! Confused! And devastated over what happened. UT2 is on this coming Monday..and this happened again~!
Why does it have to happen everytime when I'm having TESTS or EXAMINATIONS?!?!?! Why am I ALWAYS distracted by all these?!?!?!?!
I really need to cry!I don't want to keep things inside anymore! I don't want to act as if I'm very happy on the outside but bleeding on the inside! I wished I could stop breathing for a while! Leaving my brain EMPTY/BLANK! I hope my mum will be better(:
I prayed and beg that God would take all her unhappiness and troubles away from her!
I prayed and beg that she'll look on the positive side when she face any situation in her life!
I prayed and beg that our family will be united!
I prayed and beg that everything will stop bothering me!
I prayed and beg that I'll not be distracted and do badly for my UTs!
And lastly, I prayed and beg that God would take care of my family..
I am not avoiding at all..it's just that, I can't take it anymore. It comes and go. I'm a human too..I have feelings and emotions. I don't wish to bother and care...but can I? NO!!!
Tell me what shall I do?!
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To Tan Dardar:
Thank you for taking care of me! Thank you for loving me! Thank you for BULLYING ME!!!! Thank you for hugging me! Thank you for kissing me! Thank you for being there for me whenever I'm upset! Thank you for listening to my problems! Thank you for your sweet sweet care and concern! Thank you for buying me dinner/lunch! Thank you for EVERYTHING!
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Thursday, July 01, 2010
To Tan Dardar:
I'm sorry for various of things! First of all, I'm sorry that I do not eat my meals on time. Sorry that I skipped alot of meals too! Sorry that I doubt your love for me. Sorry that I make you somehow "pissed" off at times. Sorry that I refused to listen to you MOST OF THE TIME~! And I'm sorry for scolding you NOOB!
I'm sorry for alot of things which I don't know how to say here!
Dardar, I will be your good girl from now on!! I won't scold you noob or whatever le(: PROMISE!
I will listen to you..eat on time...eat every meal..BIT BY BIT !!!!!
Just wanna let you know, I didn't regret being together with you. And I LOVE YOU!!!
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Baby, just promise me that you'll take my hands and love me. There's just something about y'that attracts me! And it's something VERY SPECIAL!