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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Ida's feeling very devastated now..
Her mother has an illness called thyroids, and though it is not cancerous, her doctor advised her to undergo an operation to take the whole thing out, in order to prevent it to turn into cancerous.
And you know what? If she undergoes this operation, it will be countless already. Ida has a very selfish thought of her own! She cried, plead and questioned GOD, why must her mother suffer every time? Why does she have to undergo so many countless of operations? Why can't GOD just take her home and ease her from all sufferings? Why isn't Ida the one to carry all these sufferings?

She knows that her thoughts are selfish, but that's what she thought when she thinks about it. She hates to see her mum, crying pitifully when she knew once and once again that she has illness or something like cancers. She hates to see the sight of her mum lying unconsciously on the hospital bed. She hates to see tubes hanging around her. She hates to see nurses changing drips for her mum. She hates to see her mum suffer!!!

Though her mum told her that she has already been numbed by all these news, Ida knew that she has been crying every night. One day, Ida's mum told her that she wished to end her life during operations, she wished to disobey the doctor's instructions, wished that something might happen during operation, wished that she will contract with cancer, so it can end her life. Isn't that a selfish thought too? Ida's really feeling very moody now! She hoped and wished that someone out there would care for her, but who? Nobody..only her closed friends.
But she don't wanna trouble her friends that's why she kept everything to herself, inside her, suffocating her, strangling her, killing her!

Dear GOD, I somethimes do wish that you could just take my mum away, take her away to somewhere she doesn't have to suffer so much in her life!



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